I Need to be Weak

As a young girl growing up, even as an adult, whenever anyone faced a difficult trial, almost always I heard someone tell another person, “You have to be strong”. I myself have done this. For example….

If someone passed away, I would hear someone tell a loved one, You have to be strong. 

If a friend betrayed you……You have to be strong.

If a family member received a bad report from the doctor…..You have to be strong.

If parents got divorced……You have to be strong.

If you’ve lost it all had to live somewhere that was not home……You have to be strong.

Do any of these sound familiar? 

One of the biggest trials I’ve ever faced, other than infidelity, has been not living in our home for 2 ½ years. Though we are grateful for family taking us in, it was a trying time for our own family. We didn’t have our space, our things, our privacy. This brought a HUGE burden on our family. I remember crying out to God (knowing that it was our poor financial choices that got us there in the first place) and saying, “What DO YOU WANT with me, haven’t you broken me enough? Am I still not learning? Am I being proud? Are you trying to humble me because I have pride?” You name it I asked it (and when I say I cried out, it was more like yelling at GOD). Well guess what, he didn’t answer the way I wanted him to, but I will say this.

As I sat in my car yelling at him, toward the end of my tantrum, I couldn’t help but feel this overwhelming peace. No, GOD didn’t speak audibly, no I didn’t turn on the radio to a song that spoke to my circumstance or turn on the television set to a preaching that spoke truth to my life. It was just God, me and MY WEAKNESS. During that trial God spoke this truth into my life.

In 2 Corinthians 12:7-9 Paul wrote,

even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.

Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you needMy power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

You see like Paul I PLEADED/ BEGGED for God to take it all away. For him to just PLEASE help our family get home. But I remember when God gave me this verse I change the way I spoke to God. So instead of complaining I began to ask GOD, “Father what do you want me to learn in this trial?”; and this is what I learned about my weaknesses during that time….

Whenever I thought/felt…..

God I want to go home, I can’t live like this anymore….…My grace is sufficient….my power is made perfect in your weakness

God fix our finances, we learned our lesson……….……..My grace is sufficient….my power is made perfect in your weakness

God tell my husband he has to work triple time….……...My grace is sufficient….my power is made perfect in your weakness

God if you do this, I promise I will do anything you ask.. My grace is sufficient….my power is made perfect in your weakness

I also learned tImagehat I can’t always change my circumstance,    bad things will happen, and I DON’t want to depend on me to fix it. I don’t want to live life thinking that I have to be super strong. I want, I NEED to be weak, so that HIS Power would be PERFECT in MY Weakness.

 

 

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2 thoughts on “I Need to be Weak

  1. Been there with the yelling in my car 😮 – isn’t He so gracious and such a gentleman, to wait for us to finish, and then show us what He has been trying to teach us, through our prideful and selfish selves??? So blessed to see how God has brought you through this time, with a humble heart to now bless others. Love you sister ❤

  2. Amen!! His grace is sufficient, made perfect in our weakness, but ohhhhh, it’s not always easy. Sometimes the truth is hard to swallow but it’s in those times, those valley’s…where we struggle, we grow in faith and He blesses us for our perseverance!! Thanks for sharing. ❤

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